We spent the weekend in the studio. Dryw was sick, so no vocals tracked, but we did get a ton of stuff done. On Saturday Jordan tracked accordion for a song called “No More Samaritans” and Zack and I tracked on a song called “Son of Hell”.
Sunday was spent with our new friend Kush Arora (www.kusharora.com), an ace programmer from the bay area who helped us revamp the electronic drum parts on our intro song (and title track) “Signs and Wonders”. He’s into dub/bhangra/a bunch of other genres I’m totally unaware of but he nailed the feel of the drums while managing to infuse his own style into the track. Dude is super talented, I forgot to blink a few times while I was watching him at work. I am really, really excited for the final version.
As January draws to a close, we find ourselves with the end in sight. February 28th will be our final day of mixing/mastering and we’ll be putting the album up for a full stream on Myspace, I think. The album is called Signs and Wonders, and we’re excited to share it with you. Well, now I am at least.
I don’t think I was excited a month ago. I’ve had this weird love/hate/sometimes-mostly-hate/anxious relationship with the record for a lot of reasons. None of them have to do with the quality of the songs or the recording itself, but the weight of realizing that months of writing songs, rehearsing and now recording are about to come to an end and we’re going to be done with the project. Maybe it’s the amount of energy and heart I put into this release compared to past efforts with other groups, maybe it’s my psyche preparing itself for the massive life change I feel coming on after this gets released….but it is something.
I don’t know where my anxiety stems from, perhaps it’s the possibility of rejection or failure? I’ll be honest, it scares me a bit. It takes a certain kind of vulnerability to work this hard on something and just sort of present it to as many people as possible without wondering if it’s even good. Now, this doubt is not ever-present, but it is there. You see, I gave up college, girlfriends, friends and career advancement because of music and to have this doubt stowed away in the back of mind is unsettling at times to say the least.
The awesome thing is, all of that anxiety and fear melts away when I play these songs. It doesn’t matter under what the circumstances are, live or just rehearsing…my insecurities, any masks I’ve created for my daily life, any fears about the future or regrets about the past are shed when I get together with these four dudes and play the music we’ve created. I thrive on the transparency that music gives me, and I hope that when you listen to these songs you hear exactly what I’m writing about.
There’s no awkward posturing or pretentious gestures on this album, no empty words or contrived measures. This is us, growing with each other as friends and writing songs, each a snapshot of the lives we’ve lead in the last two years. We’ve battled depression, struggled with the far reaches of sorrow and fought vices that have threatened to swallow us whole….but we’ve also experienced true friendship, passion, progression, growth and a brotherhood that does its best to embody what true love means.
Thank you for joining us on this journey and being patient as we take the time to make this record the best it can be. More songs soon.
Love (and more love if you actually read all of that),